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Okay, so I have been introduced to the world of Spotify podcast by my bestfriend/cousin Alma and boy was I hooked haha! I mean this podcast is so chill and very real, 'yung tipong para ka lang nakikinig sa dalawang tropa mong sobrang sabaw minsan haha. Btw, link below is my fave video so far because Pancho and coffee in one haha 😄 At first, I was a bit not so hooked kasi nga I'm more of a music person so yeah, listening to a random conversation was not really something that captured my attention. But on the 2nd episode, I knew I already checked in with this program. Sobrang random kasi ng topics and you know they are both enjoying the show.  I usually listen to it when I'm free and when I'm travelling kasi sometimes when you get so stressed out, you just gotta to listen to all their advises, rants and whatnots and sobrang natatawa ako and I look crazy sometimes, laughing alone but who cares, chill :D And bonus thing is, there's Panchooooo, this cut...

Naniniwala ka ba sa temporary people? 'Yung mga tao na minsan darating sa buhay mo if only for a moment.  You spend time with them, bare your soul to them and then they leave you, slowly fading into existence. Minsan you'll ask yourself, was it always meant to be that way? Na lagi tayong iiwan ng mga taong akala natin laging andyan for us. Ako kasi siguro nasanay na, nasanay nang makatagpo ng taong magiging kaibigan pero bigla na lang mawawala. Tinatanong ko rin naman ang sarili ko on what went wrong. Ako ba ang may kasalanan o sila? O baka naman pareho naming pinili na itapon na lang yung pinagsamahan with all the reasons that we both have but we don't care or bother to share with each other.  Hindi ako magaling makipagkaibigan, 'yun, 'yun siguro yung dahilan.  You would say why the random post about this? Kasi nga I feel like I have so many temporary people in my life right now. People whom I've given so much trust but then in an instant parang ma...

How do you start being okay? Do you smile until your mouth hurts? Do you drag your feet to go to unknown places? Do you write like you know all the words? How can you even start being okay? Maybe tonight I'm gonna learn how to be alone. I'll start brewing my own coffee in the morn The birds would say hello to a lone figure by the window My heart will get used to only my shadow Pavements will get bigger than what it used to.

Gumising ako isang umaga na hindi ko alam saan tutungo. Nagbihis, lumabas, lumakad, papuntsa kung saan sila patungo Hindi namalayang mga mata'y napupuno na ng luha Dahil alam ng puso na gusto na nitong lumaya. Sinubukang itama lahat ng kamaliang nagawa Ngunit hindi batid kung saan nga ba magsisimula. Dahil sa bawat hakbang ay sabay patak ng luha Pusong pagod, malungkot ngunit takot magpalaya. Saya at lungkot, siya ang nagdadala Kung papalayai'y, paano na? Sa bawat pagbangon sa umaga, kanino tataya, Kung ang tanging dahilan ng pagmulat ng mata ay wala na.