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Seek

I see a bright street light outside my window. Yellow colored bulb to light up the high way. It makes me think about the light which is slowly dimming in my life. What have I done? What have I become? I live in a good house but never in a home. Home is far, far from where I am. They said I was lucky that I am where I am now, but really, was I? Was I lucky to be alone, this far? I seek peace in a place where I ran to find solace. But now, I crave the warmth from the people I call home. Empty as I am, I found my truth; that love can give ruth. To give love, one must know what it meant, because if not, one can't. To let go and trust the process, one must be prepared to be broken. I was whole, and yet here I am, vulnerable, raw and open. Time will tell if I'll ever trust my heart again to someone, to start anew. Because everything changed, the moment I let my heart go askew. To see the light again, and enjoy the rays the sun shines upon me;

Memory

How do you even start forgetting a person? How do you tell yourself to move on and let go? If you saw yourself with him in the future, how can you possibly teach your heart not to? When he tells you he loves you and yet he couldn't  be with you, what do you do? Can a person truly love you without ever being with you? Can one really live his life knowing he can never be with  the one his heart desires? Or are you the one really foolishly believing all his lies? I can write all the words he told but I can never really truly know his heart.

Paano, Kailan

Paano nga ba magmahal? Paano mo masasabi na totoong nagmahal ka? Paano mo masasabi na kaya mong magmahal? Paano nga kaya magmahal ng totoo? Paano nga ba masaktan? Paano mo masasabi na nasasaktan ka? Paano mo masasabi na kaya mong masaktan? Paano nga kaya masaktan ng totoo? Paano? Isang tanong na pilit kong sinasagot. Sa buhay na tinahak ko, ito na siguro ang pinakamahirap sagutin. Paano nga ba nagiging mali ang isang bagay? Paano nga ba maiitatama ang mga mali? Paano nga ba mawasak? Paano kung ikaw ang nakawasak? Paano nga ba tumayo muli? Paano nga ba makakabangon sa hukay na ako mismo ang gumawa? Paano nga ba susundin ang tama? Paano nga ba? Paano ba? Kailan nga ba makakabangon? Kailan nga ba makakapag-simulang muli?