Lost

There are moments in my life that I feel just so fucked up. You know, those times that I just hate being me, or more specifically, the person that I've become. Sometimes, I wish I was kinder and nicer, good maybe. It's just that there are things that I really can't control. My temper, my anger, and me hating everything that don't really live up to my standards, makes me feel like a bad person. I just can't understand things. Maybe I'm immature and all but come on, I'm just 23, not even in "quarter life" scene yet.

This too, shall pass. Too much emotional hangups that I can't seem to get through. Awake at half past 11 thinking about changing careers and quitting my job and on to what should I do tomorrow at work. Maybe, just maybe, I need someone or something that can take away this mad feeling of being so pressured with my societal need to be approved, to be recognized. My twisted ego and pride. I'm so lost that I don't even know why I writing this one up.

I need a "me" time. I need time to be away from everything that I know, everthing that is familiar. I need to clear my mind, my heart. Right now, I think, no, I know, I NEED GOD. :(