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There are so many things that are happening in my life that I'm already at a point wherein any major problem can trigger my mental and emotional break down. Right now, I'm very thankful for having been able to find friends that can enlighten me about the ups and downs of my current situation. It is them that gave me a whole new perspective as to how to go on with my life. I'm a little bit shocked about the things that I've learned about myself and about them as well. Minsan nga talaga mas makikilala mo sarili mo sa point of view ng ibang tao na hindi ka pa masyadong kakilala. Dun mo marerealize na there are certain things na minsan hindi mo makita pero nakikita ng iba and that things are the ones that cause problems that sometimes you cannot correct instantly,like for example, attitude. Kanina lang na-realize ko na 'yung mga tao na dati akala ko is ang taas taas eh yun pa yung mga tao na magpakilala sakin kung sino talaga ako. I mean all my faults and unnecessary ka...

i miss those moments when a random thought comes into my mind and suddenly i begin to write those thoughts on paper... i miss the people and the events that inspires me to write a poem or an entry that describes what i feel about them... i miss having my own time just to ponder on what things to write on my  journal about random things that i see... i miss sipping my instant coffee and staring into my monitor hoping that a good line would just pop into my mind for the entry that i'm writing... i miss spending my time revising my almost 4-year old "novel" that i think would never have the chance to be finished... i miss imagining myself to be writing my own books and making a fortune out of it... i miss sitting on my dorm bed with only the light coming from my study table to help me organize my thoughts... i miss checking out my word bank just to find the perfect word for the things that i'm feeling... i miss the feeling of going insane...

It pays to work hard but I guess it's more fulfilling to know that you've endured some things that you'd never imagine you could. Of all the things that I love about being a career a woman, I think the best one is the memory of that first day when you are actually hired. It's a life changing event that makes you feel that indeed your already part of the industry so now I'm celebrating my one month stay in my company although I'm not yet sure if I can make it through and if I'll stay there for good. This past month has been a whirl wind of emotions due to the fact that I was just starting to sort my goals for the next years of my work life. I think it's still to early for me to decide the specific area that I want to pursue as a chemical engineer but I know for sure that I'm very thankful that the Lord gave me the opportunity to work with my company right now just because it gives me the challenge to overcome my weaknesses by giving me situations tha...